Social Media Vs Mental Health…Is It Wrong….

Hello, my happy bloggers….hope everyone is doing well!!….

Don’t Let It Destroy Mental Health!!!

In my opinion “yes” It can destroy a person’s well-being..and their state of mind… twitter, instagram, facebook, pinterest, etc…can be the actual key.. using social media obsessively causes more than just anxiety . In fact, it has been found that using too much internet can cause depression, attention deficit hyperactivity disorder ADHA….impulsive disorder, problems with mental functioning, paranoia, and loneliness..

How Social Media Is Bad For You….

1, Depression and anxiety….

Do you spend more than two hours per day on social media? Spending too long on social networking sites could be adversely affecting your mood. In fact, you’re more likely to report mental health, including symptoms of anxiety and depression..

2, Cyberbullying….

Before social media, bullying was done face-to-face. However, now, someone can be bullied online anonymously, Today everyone knows what cyberbulling is, and most of us have seen what it can do to a person. And since screens hide our faces, you can end up being a jerk on social media and other websites without realising it.

While social media made making friends easier, it also made it easier for predators to find victims. The anonymity that social networks provide can be used by the perpetrators to gain people’s trust and terrorize them in front of their peer’s…

3, Fear of missing out.

This fear is constantly fueled by your social media engagement. The more you use social networks, the more likely you are to see someone is having more fun than you are right now. And that’s exactly what causes fear of missing out….

4, Unrealistic Expectations…

This one probably comes as no surprise, but social media helps you to form unrealistic expectations of life and friendships. The networks that do it most are Facebook, Instagram, and Snapchat. Those are the social media platforms that severely lack online authenticity.

One simple way out of this is for everyone to quit lying on social media. But in the era of Instagram celebrities and YouTubers who earn millions, that isn’t going to happen anytime soon.

5. Negative Body Image

Speaking of Instagram celebrities, if you look at popular Instagram accounts, you’ll find beautiful people wearing expensive clothes on their perfect bodies.

Today, body image is an issue for many people of both sexes. Of course, seeing those perfect in accordance with the society standards people on a daily basis makes you conscious about how different you look from those pictures. And not everyone comes to the right conclusions in this situation.

6. Unhealthy Sleep Patterns

On top of increased rates of anxiety and depression, spending too much time on social media can lead to poor sleep. Numerous studies have shown that increased use of social media has a negative effect on your sleep quality.

If you feel like your sleep patterns have become irregular and that this is affecting your productivity, try and avoid spending a significant amount of time on social media.

7. General Addiction

Social media is often described as being more addictive than cigarettes and alcohol, with the worst social media apps being Facebook, Instagram, Snapchat, and TikTok when it comes to addiction.

Don’t know if you’re addicted to your social networks? Think when was the last time you went a full day without checking your social media accounts? Do you feel rejected if someone unfollows you? What if your favourite social networks completely disappeared tomorrow; would it make you feel empty and depressed?Unfriended or Unfollowed? How to Handle Rejection on Social Media Unfriended or Unfollowed? How to Handle Rejection on Social MediaIt sucks when someone unfriends or unfollows you. Here’s what you can do when you face social media rejection.

Social media is a place where people make new friends. But for some, it’s also the place where people leave old friends.

Being unfriended or unfollowed by someone feels horrible. And while most social media platforms won’t inform you when someone leaves you, you might find out anyway when you notice no recent activity from them. They just dumped you like that—without any goodbyes, broken up on social media.

Here are some things you can do when you face social media rejection…..

If you just realised you’re addicted to social media, don’t worry, as most of us are there with you in varying degrees. And it’s not necessarily a reason to go and wipe yourself off all those social networking platforms.

However, if you think quitting is the best solution for you, I won’t stop you. In fact, one of my friends I helped… tried quitting social media once, and it was an interesting experience… She said it saved her life….

I’m In a Very Happy Place Right Now…And I Love Positive Sites That Have A Good Positive Attitude…So Thank You…!!!

I believe that we can look at social media differently…. we can look at reality, our life live it to the fullest of expectations, and not others expectations.. of how they look or how they dress…such as the celebrity world…and others who have the happiest lives they are living because we can do exactly the same…take a look a real life, the positive’s and meaningful words of happiness, outings, travelling, fun with friends, working to pursue a career….you want…and ingnore negativity!!!!

I mean every word my pals…

Take Care…..x

Inner Peace In This Daily Life…✌🏼

Hello My ♥️s 😊😊!!!

A few weeks ago I brought a book 📖 called enjoy inner peace ✌🏼 in the busy daily life…and found it extremely helpful…and I sure it can help you too…👍🏻

It learns how to stop getting stressed or easily annoyed, to stop allowing negative thoughts…and worries to harass you…

It learns you to enjoy inner peace…in your busy everyday life…..

Very helpful and healing……

The book will teach you, through various techniques, how to maintain a state of inner peace, calmness and happiness in your everyday life, at work, at home and in every situation….

Guidance and advice for making your mind peaceful and free from stress, worries, and negative thinking…..

The Book about Inner Peace

You will find here easy to follow and practice guidance, advice and instructions, for gaining inner peace and for maintaining a calm frame of mind it in the busy, hectic daily life.

A peaceful mind will help you remain calm in stressful situations, and when dealing with stressful people.

What Is Inner Peace?
It is a state of mental and emotional calmness, free from stress, worries and negative thoughts. When the mind is at peace, anxieties, stress, worries, fears, nervousness and impatience disappear and stop bothering you. This is most important in all areas of life, and is vital for your physical, emotional and mental health.

When there is inner peace, the emotions calm down, anger, nervousness and impatience disappear, and life looks brighter.

You may lead a busy life, have a demanding job and a family to support, and yet, enjoy peace of mind.

The purpose of this book is to help you free yourself from stress, worries and negative thinking, gain inner peace, and bring calmness and tranquillity into your life.

  • Inner peace is a must, when thoughts and worries about your job, your mortgage, family or health harass you.
  • Inner peace is most needed when dealing with difficult or stressful people.
  • It is most helpful when you find yourself in stressful situations.
  • A state of inner peace would help you free your mind from worries and negative thoughts.

How Will This Book Help You?

Following and practicing the guidance that this book offers will help you to:

  1. Stay calm and peaceful in your daily life, around stressful people, and in stressful situations.
  2. Become more content, happy and optimistic.
  3. Learn to let go of worries, negative emotions, negative thoughts and unpleasant memories.
  4. Empty your mind from unnecessary and meaningless thoughts and enjoy a calm and undistracted mind.
  5. Start enjoying a sense of freedom and inner joy in your everyday life. Worries, stress, and negative thinking are like chains that tie you down. When you free you mind from them, you will feel free and happy.
  6. Keep calm in stressful and hectic situations, and handle them calmly and efficiently.
  7. Stop allowing thoughts and worries to keep you from falling asleep at night.
  8. Choose inner peace instead of thinking about matters that bother you.
  9. Stop the endless stream of thoughts and worries that run in your mind.
  10. Keep peaceful and calm mind in every situation.

This book is absolutely amazing!!! 😁😁 It has helped and guided me in many ways possible and it can for you guys too…✌🏼♥️ I thought this information would be great for those who are having hard times…

Take care…my friends..

Cheerio 👋 xx

Hey.. Goodbye To Negative Thinking.. Hello To The Real World..Of Positive Thought’s…Again ✌🏼

Hey my beautiful people…..♥️

As you may have noticed, I’ve been away for a while… taking a break with family, and friends, and then concentrating on my new job…continuing my training..week by week I’ve been a very busy 🐝!! It’s been exhausting…

And now at last I have some free time…thank the lord.. 🙏🏻

What as inspired me to do this post.. is that we should focus on our goals and dreams in order not to let negative thinking ruin our lives….and get the better of us..At this precise moment I’ve found it a little difficult to feel comfortable in my new job…and I started thinking negative again and letting my brain go into overdrive.. in which I seriously hate,”yes I know it’s a very strong word” but at times it can get out of control…but all that’s about to change..again!!

But here is the million dollar answer of what I was thinking:

Maybe I’m taking things too personal again.. like I did before, can I do well in this new mental health profession, and the answer is YES… I can, maybe when I’m comfortable in my new job, I will absolutely love it…and that is why I keep pushing myself forward everyday….to succeed, as now I’ve had my promotion.. of senior care role.. and I’ve bonded with my unit I’m working on… and I adore the residents.. and they are becoming quite attached to me, so at least something feels right in my heart about this job…

I was struggling a little while ago, and trying to come to term’s with negative thinking… I kept getting emotional, depressed, and extremely tired..I thought what do they think of me, do they like me, can they see that I’m a caring person…thinking am I doing this right “you know” am I doing that right… my overthinking was definitely coming back…and spiralling out of control..😥 it’s extremely hard when you have left your old Job… of 22 yrs, and that I’ve now come out of my comfort zone… but if your wondering why I had left my old job is because it became too hard on my own mind and became exhausting mentally..I was dealing with challenging behaviors…aswell which put a strain on my overthinking, and anxiety. leading to depression..

But I’ve worked with learning disabilities in my training.. before anything else which is what I wanted to do first.. so really it isn’t anything new to me, it’s just a new routine..and a new environment..

But what has led me to negativity again is that I’m finding it difficult to fit in.. maybe I’m thinking to soon!!!

But negativity and overthinking has control of your mind..

Don’t let it fool you one bit.. because it wins everytime..

Not for me, this is the final straw, I’ll be fine.. I know I’m good at the job that I do.. I just need to believe in myself a lot more..and I will then feel comfortable..around others and people that I look after.. because my manager wouldn’t have faith in me if she didn’t believe that I could do it..and I know that she has every trust in do my job that I love and enjoy, and that means everything to me in my 💓 as I have for these patients I look after 🙂.

I believe every word, what a good person left for me on my older blog about overthinking.. and I thank you so much for that comment.. because I looked back.. and thought “yes it’s so true” spend eighty percent of your time focusing on the opportunities of tomorrow, instead of the problems of yesterday..!!! ✌🏼and ♥️

This as helped me a great deal.. so goodbye 👋 negativity, hello positivity 💓😘 that’s what I believe in 😄..

Cheerio everyone…✌🏼♥️♥️

Low self esteem,Setting A Positive Life, Of Being Yourself, And Guiding Yourself In The Right Direction, With Mental Health…….

Hello my beautiful friends….. Hope you are all well!!

We can all expect the obvious reasons, that we all can not succeed…because of our mental health, and that’s the hardest thing to do, sometimes and it’s a huge struggle to cope with because of situations that can be extremely difficult to overcome.

Low self esteem….Issue’s!!! You are not alone….

We all have times when we lack confidence and don’t feel good about ourselves…

But when low self esteem becomes a long term problem, it can have a harmful effect on our mental health and our lives…..

What causes low self esteem…….

Low self esteem often begins in childhood, teachers, friends, siblings, and even media send us messages about ourselves, both positive, and negative.

For some reason, the message you aren’t good enough, is the one that stays with you.

Perhaps you found it difficult to live up to other people’s expectations of youor to your own expectations…

Stress, and difficult life events, such as serious illness.. or a bereavement, can have a negative effect on self esteem….

That’s what happened to me in my childhood, when I was going through depression…losing my dad and being bullied…

Personality can also play a part. Some people are just more prone to negative thinking, while others set impossibly high standards for themselves..

We are good enough!!!

How does low self esteem, affect us…..

If you have low self esteem or lack confidence, you may hide away from social situations, stop trying new things, and avoid things you find challenging…..

“In the short term, avoiding challenging and difficult situations can make you feel a lot safer…”

My social anxiety… was pretty difficult as I found them challenging , my self esteem was always in the the firing line, but getting myself to go out there and change my way of thinking was to push myself, as I sometimes tended to tell myself I’m a bit lazy…I was thinking it’s not going to come my way automatically….I needed to work hard. And I did, setting my goals and dreams.. of going to university. and definitely going to travel, and pass my driving licence without fail.. creativity to me is the key… as I tend to go on a college course… to do a creative writing programme for beginner’s..

Other ways to improve low self esteem..

Here are some simple techniques that may help you feel better about yourself…

Recognise what you’re good at.

We’re all good at something, whether it’s cooking, singing, doing puzzles or being a friend. We also tend to enjoy doing the things we’re good at, which can help boost your mood.

Build positive relationships.

If you find certain people tend to bring you down, try to spend less time with them, or tell them how you feel about their words or actions.

Seek out relationships with people who are posi

Be kind to yourself

Professor Williams advises: “Be compassionate to yourself. That means being gentle to yourself at times when you feel like being self-critical.

“Think what you’d say to a friend in a similar situation. We often give far better advice to others than we do to ourselves.”

Learn to be assertive

Being assertive is about respecting other people’s opinions and needs, and expecting the same from them.

Being assertive is about respecting other people’s opinions and needs, and expecting the same from them.

One trick is to look at other people who act assertively and copy what they do.

“It’s not about pretending you’re someone you’re not,” says Professor Williams. “It’s picking up hints and tips from people you admire and letting the real you come out.”

Start saying ‘no’.

People with low self-esteem often feel they have to say yes to other people, even when they don’t really want to.

The risk is that you become overburdened, resentful, angry and depressed.

“For the most part, saying no doesn’t upset relationships,” says Professor Williams. “It can be helpful to keep saying no in different ways until they get the message.”

Give yourself a challenge

We all feel nervous or afraid to do things at times. But people with healthy self-esteem don’t let these feelings stop them trying new things or taking on challenges.

Set yourself a goal, such as joining an exercise class or going to a social occasion. Achieving your goals will help to increase your self-esteem.

You can love and believe in yourself… by having strength and faith taking step by step…..

Take care everyone!!!

Cheerio!! x

A Way To Look At Things In A Different Light…Try Loving And Believing In Yourself First…💜🌷

This year as been the hardest for me.. I’ve always had a struggle with Isolation, depression, anxiety, a number of eating disorders… low self esteem, social anxiety, binge eating, as you have read in my previous blogs… and trying to communicate in helping others… I’ve had help to overcome these situations as I’ve spent recent months in a rehab centre …💔

And now I’ve found the courage to stand on my own two feet without being afraid….a lot of my past had something to do with the way that I was living, esp… with isolation.

People do have a difficult time in their lives of living and struggling with mental Illness, bipolar, manic depression, anxiety, panic attacks etc,….

This could be the hardest situation that you are in… and I get that, I really do, but you must have the courage to look at your life and think, one step at a time… do a journal of thoughts and feelings, set out your goals, things that interest you…

The picture above… shows my plan of reaching my goal that I focused on, and having trust, hope, faith, and belief… many people have a struggle setting out these goals esp with what they are facing or what they are going through….

Take social media for instance, instagram, facebook, twitter, pinterest, and the affect it does have on mental health, but in another way we can look at it, we can work harder for what we want…maybe I’m making it sound as easy as that…. but you need to believe in yourself, and love yourself more no matter the situations.

I agree it can be upsetting when we see people being happy and enjoying themselves..taking vacations, having money in their pocket, and it gets you thinking why can’t I do that…but that isn’t always the case, they could be having a more of a worse day then others..

Believe In Yourself…..

Believe in yourself and you can achieve.

Things you never thought possible.

Believe in yourself and you can discover.

New talents hidden inside you.

Believe in yourself and you can reach.

New heights that you thought immeasurable.

Believe in yourself and you can elucidate.

The problem that defies every solution.

Believe in yourself and you can tackle.

The hardest of all situations.

Believe in yourself and you can make.

The complicated things seem simple.

Believe in yourself and you can enjoy.

The beauty of nature’s creation.

Believe in yourself and you can learn.

Skills of gaining knowledge from experience.

Believe in yourself and you can discern.

New depths in your life.

Believe in yourself and you can perform.

Way beyond your expectations.

Believe in your aim and work towards it, with elation, determination and dedication, believe in yourself and you’ll feel blessed.

As you are god’s special creation……..✌

Make It Happen….

When I was going through my childhood I was always considered the slow girl with no knowledge, I couldn’t even write things down on paper… or read where I was always in a foundation class than a higher education class to others… and children were cruel, my exams was always low in marks..I wasn’t good with numbers I had to find a way to learn new skills, but it was a struggle that I kept on giving up saying that I can’t do this….no no no.

Who as Inspirations… of music that helped you along the way of growing up, and believing in yourself… the video above, helped me find strength to say one day I will make it happen… I will achieve what I want…I started to go to college school to help me read and write even though at the time I had no interest, but in the long run I was happy of continuing to learn my goals..and as for others saying I’m finding it difficult… and keep giving up, need to start over again without failing I know it’s extremely hard… but you can start over each day!!! and ignore others… these happy people you are talking about you can look back and say I’m strong no matter the consequences…

No matter how hard you have had it in your life, as I have over recent months with mental Illness, things you want don’t fall into your lap I learned that this year…. push yourself to the extreme…going on vacations, on the beach, and other things.

Try setting yourself free…. as like next year, my plan is to go to university.. to start my counselling level 2 or becoming a talking therapist…Anyone struggling, tell me your interests… and goals, we all have a goal…

I’ve had to push myself so hard that I know that I can do anything without fail.. because I’ve always said to myself I’m weak and unhappy but I needed to change my way of thinking..we all have dreams, and when I’d choose the career I wanted, as a mental health profession, even though I caused a lot of stress in the long run. I’m very grateful and privileged of the way things did turn out for me… even though I have been in very dark places… with anxiety and depression, I push myself to say…..

Believe in yourself… as I’ve struggled myself, of being happy finding peace, and love….

Love will come your way, when you believe and heal yourself…It’s not going to come over night, but you will look back and say I’ve come this far ahead..And now I can help others and guide them to a new destiny…Be honest and true to yourself, and I’m sorry for the very long term of writing..But to me this is Important for you, as we all have a purpose in life.. never give up.

Easier said than done…but even though your going through a bad day!!! of unhappiness or having mood swings on and off day to day that can’t be helped…keep positive.

Okay my pals!!!

I feel better now I’ve done this blog!!!

Stay positive, Love, peace and happiness….


Spiritual Healing…..In Mental Health…Poems Of Healing And Life….

Hello my lovelies, hope you are keeping well…..

I haven’t written in a while… as I’ve been going forward with new opportunities.

But I haven’t forgotten my roots of helping others to move forward, as I see a light in all of you, in healing our mental health…as some of you may never feel properly cured,and as we all can have good days and bad days……always focus on what the next day will bring…and think I’m going to stay positive today, YOU GOT THIS!!!…

Spiritual Healing…..

Powerful Poem About Life Lessons…….

Faith and courage is what will get you through this life……

In life there are people that will hurt us and cause us pain,

But we must learn to forgive and forget and not hold grudges,

In life there are regrets we will have to live with,

But we must learn to leave the past behind and realise it is something we cannot change,

In life there are people we will loose forever and can’t have back, but learn to let go and move on…

In life there are going to be obstacles that will cause interference, but we must learn to overcome these challenges and grow stronger…

In life there are fears that will hold us back from what we want, but we must learn to fight them with the courage from within,

God holds our lives in his hands, he holds the key to our future, only he knows our fate.

He sees everything and knows everything. Everything in life really does happen for a reason: “God’s Reason”…..

Before healing myself, I was in a very dark place…where I became extremely lost… and I didn’t know which way I was turning!!!….

There’s a cold dark corner in the back of my room,

It speaks to me and says I’m coming for you,

As I lie on my bed, wild thoughts run through my head,

As I lie in fetal position, my eyes are closed hoping and wishing,

Maybe that one day my dreams will come true, that I don’t have to be here so down and blue,

The corner keeps on telling me about how I’m going to die, all I can do is lie there and cry,

As the corner gets closer and takes me, my soul turns to burn as so does my skin,

My bones shall lie there turning to dust, my bed surrounding nothing but rust.

I read that poem over and over thinking that, when I heal my soul I’ll look back and think…..thank the lord I’ve survived away from that dark place….we all have strength and power to fight our demons, and we have a right to be on this earth for love and healing, even though we might face a brick wall that BRICK WALL CAN BE BROKEN!!!!!! and we can then mend our broken pieces.

Fighting with your illness, can be an extremely huge struggle when you are trying your damn hardest to pull yourself back up on the straight and narrow…. Here is a poem to establish, the difficulties many of you face!!!

Life is hard to live sometimes when the light inside no longer shines, Everything around you becomes so dark, You grab a knife and leave a mark! It makes me feel alive again! replacing fear and doubts with pain!

You hope to fill the emptiness, You fight to end of loneliness, You start to drink your pain away, drowning your sorrow day to day.

You quickly want to end your life! You sit alone holding the knife,

Failure now consumes your heart, hate and love is tearing you apart!,

The fear and pain controlling your mind, the hate inside you leaves you blind…

The bit of love you feel, someone with bipolar disorder.. it’s real It’s why you are here It’s for your love to remain, although you may fear your completely insane…….

However spiritual healing is a path of transformation, a journey that connects the body, heart and mind to free the soul….

This addresses physical, emotional, mental and spiritual toxins. In this way, we eliminate toxins that undercut the soul, we then release motion that splits the person away from themselves. And doing both allows the person to become whole…..

When I looked at spiritual healing myself… and my physical health, and my ways of getting healthy again I started to write down my own poetry and emotional stories on healing and faith and of course years of painful situations in my youth through childhood… I wanted to help and guide others through the healing process, as a few months ago my breakdowns spiralled out of control of loneliness and despair and going through anxiety and depression… even though I work in the mental health Industry myself, in can become very draining… even though I’m very dedicated…..

I’m going to leave you with one last poem….. a poem of healing and courage..

Having someone to help you is great,

Especially when they’re always there,

A poem can be good mate,

Lift you up when you can’t bear,

It can help you through the pain,

Never to leave you standing alone,

Guiding and healing till you rise again..

I need a healing in my soul,

Lord, give me a voice for my healing,

One that will cry out in the distance,

One that will ring out in the streets,

I need a healing for my future,

Lord give me a voice for my healing

One that can speak potential into being

One that with faith can act on your will…

Well we can heal and believe in spiritual healing as I did to help me guide my brightest future’s ahead, and believe me it can work for you guys to….never never let anybody discourage you.. because they do that honestly….

Take Care my sweetie’s…..Lots Of Love and happiness and peace coming your way…..


Inspirational Quotes…..Looking On The Positive Side Of Our Mental Health….!💐

Hello my dearest pals…….hope everything is well ❤️

The reason of doing this post, is that I believe…. Inspiration is the key to our mental health and looking at something that is positive…..

This is why we look at inspirational quotes to help us look for solace and spirit in our souls… goes.

Finding and giving happiness and guidance, is my key to see all the good in others!!! That is my main key, to give something back and no matter what, if you have difficultly healing and rising your head above water, NEVER GIVE UP!!! keep trying… ✊

I don’t think people realise how much strength It takes to pull your own self out of a dark place mentally, so if you have done that today or any day…..I’m proud of you.🌹💗

We are equal, we both walk two feet on this earth…..and we are in this together…

Motivational and Inspirational quotes sets for Mental Health Day. Just breathe, how are you, you are more then your illness, love your mind, you are not alone, be more you, love yourself.💞

There’s going to be very painful moments in your life that will change your entire world in a matter of minutes…..These moments will change YOU. Let them make you stronger, smarter, and kinder. But don’t you go and become someone that you’re not……Cry scream if you have too…Then you straighten out that crown and keep it moving…

Everything comes to you at the right time. Be patient and it will come your way absolutely…..

Whats broken can be mended, what hurts can be healed…. And no matter how dark it gets, the sun is going to rise again..

Never apologise for being sensitive, or emotional. Let this be a sign that you’ve got a big heart….and aren’t afraid to let others see it..showing your emotions is a sign of strength..

It’s never too late for a new beginning in your life….Because It’s out there!!! GO AND GRAB IT while you can…

You know you’re on the right path… when you feel good about moving forward, and you could not care less when looking back….

We Can Beat This……

This is how I dealt with my inspirations…and continued to heal myself and try and look at different….ways to adjust myself,

Well my lovelies……take care, love, peace, and happiness…..❤️✌😄

Cheerio peep’s 🎀 xx

Losing My Father, Very Young…. And How I Coped With Depression In My Childhood…. And The Grieving Process That Led Me To My Mental Health….😢💔

Hello my happy bloggers…..

This is about my childhood…..growing up without one parent… That I lost at the tender age of 9 yrs old….

My story……🌷🌷

When I was Young, my father meant everything too me, I was a dad’s first born… And of course then my brother, in which he was only 2 yrs old at the time of his death…

It was a very hard intense moment for me, as I was present at the time of his death, at the age of 42 yrs I was there in that horrible experience… I remember shouting him… at the time and It was really hard, even today I can still see his face 😢😞 thinking I wish I was that 2 yr old…

Me, dad, mom and my family, we had lovely get together’s and holidays that I miss…. Mostly at christmas time…..We used to go to a club on a saturday evenings and going to disco’s 💃… That’s where the love of music comes from. 🎶

I was very lucky I suppose as a child, christmas time was the best, I loved opening presents 🎁 when dad was there…. to see our faces glow with excitement…. And mum 😊

But losing him was the hardest, for me… I became shocked in my childhood, that I don’t think I ever grieved properly, as I never spoke about his death, and seeing everything that reminded me of him was utterly turmoil…. 😞

This was difficult on my mental health issues, I was in complete denial that he was gone…. My mum had met someone new and remarried two yrs after dads death…. Which had gotten me so angry.

I’m not going to lie, I made his life a living hell, I was extremely hard to cope with, and (I see it now) that I’ve changed because I’m older.. But what became more difficult for me was that mum became pregnant… And when she told me, I was livid… I used to tell extreme lies about him to seek attention from my mum….

Me and dad 🥰

I suffered depression, grief and loss…. It was so difficult for me to express my feelings as a child, no one ever asked how I was feeling….Everything reminded me of him, like for example I was a big fan of kylie minogue and jason donovan…and I still am. But kylie was my absolute idol growing up, my mum and dad brought me her videos and records that even today I could never ever part with them….. It would absolutely break my heart 😢💔.

Them are my fond memories of him, listening to them songs around the house, in his presence….even though it wasn’t his type of music…and also sharing happier times with him at the movies…. 🥰🥰

My mental health raised when I was at school… As you all understand I had a tough time being bullied…but I used my dads death as a comfort… So people would stop picking on me…but even though it was a struggle I did manage to cope with that.

My anxiety and depression, became worse, due to being bullied, that I needed dads guidance, even though mom tried her best, but at the time I was just to difficult… I was extremely angry… I’ve never been a bad influence in my life… But i was just in complete denial as I said before….

But I became strong, and if I didn’t have guidance in my life, I wouldn’t be as strong than I ever thought I would be, 🏋.

And my mom’s partner I excepted, along with my sister, as I wouldn’t be without them now…

But dad will always be in my memory.. And always in my heart.. with music too…

grieving was the hardest thing, as a child but whoever as been through hard times losing a parent….please share if you found it difficult..

I love my family now… And dad is shining over me⭐ because he’s guided my life…into a whole lot more even though there as been struggles….

Miss you dad…28 yrs today 😘😘🌹🌹..xx

Take care, love ❤️ peace✌ and happiness…😁

cheerio!!! Xx

and please my lovely pals…. Read my post on my other site eternal moments… As everything is my journey of my life sooo far, I would be much appreciated…Thank you… My lovelies ❤️