Feeling a little overwhelmed again..as I went to see a counsellor today…and I must admit I let out some of the anger and bitterness from my childhood past….😢 I felt a sense of release at last somehow..but I’m getting there slowly…
This is a hidden story, that remained closed, a healing heartbreak of illness…and hurtful memories….💔
My mental health illnesses, of depression and anxiety… anorexia nervosa, isolation, was a huge struggle to fight…having grasps of healing to try a restore my soul..I found it really difficult along the way and I’ve finally adjusted ♥️..
My story will hopefully guide others in the process….of healing and restoring their mental health…and wellbeing..🙂.
“Did you really want to die?”
“No one commits suicide because they want to die.”
“Then why do they do it?”
“Because they want to stop the pain.
As we struggle we can become more stronger..more open with our lives…when coping with depression and anxiety…it can bring on all sorts of emotions..and mixed feelings of anger and sadness…😞 when I had suicidal thoughts and experiences..especially with self harm… I did my best to hide my scars away from others…until one day my mother..noticed the bad scaring when I was ready for taking a bath 🛀 and became that upset she got me some help…even though at first I refused and became very emotional and angry 💔.
My life quote…that I shared at the time that left my family in despair…😢.
But now I could never do it….speaking to someone, extremely helped..don’t get me wrong I always become frightened of going into relapse…but I do try to keep myself busy…💔
There Is always a positive outlook…my poetry..and inspiration…as some people know on here, I’m a trained listening volunteer at samaritans…that also keeps me more grounded to help others…♥️ and I’m always here to offer support to anyone who is struggling, out there!!! you are not alone..✌🏼🌹
“The loneliest people are the kindest…
“The saddest people smile the brightest…
“The most damaged people are the wisest…
“All because they do not wish to see anyone else…suffer the way they do..
Counselling is helping me a great deal..of not feeling so overwhelmed..and not feeling the risk of self harm and suicidal thoughts..because we all deserve to be here..🌹..I definitely understand a person when they have suffered physically and mentally..like I had in my past life and I’m saying goodbye to it all 💗💋I’m letting go..
I’m setting out to do what I was going to do…lead an outgoing life out in nature 🐬..my fundraising events..and charities, 😘…and of course my samaritan work 😊…
And I want to thank someone… on wordpress nikki I thank you so much… for that beautiful post, of no matter what we go through in life..each day is a gift 💝 ..and I truly appreciate that..t.y 😘.
Take care everyone…♥️♥️..
Remember you all deserve to be on this earth..😊😘