My Inspirational poetry for mental health…๐Ÿ’”..

Hi my lovelies ๐Ÿ™‚.

When I was in a rehab centre last year…I had written a lot of poetry…which was heartbreaking..and I would now like to share it with you all..and try and release a sense of relief from pain and the sadness that I once felt..๐Ÿ’”.

I want to share this, as this will show how your definitely not alone in this process..โœŒ๐Ÿผ and Iโ€™m with you every step of the way 100%..โ™ฅ๏ธ

Lately I havenโ€™t been feeling well and Iโ€™m sorry if I donโ€™t smile as much Iโ€™m sorry if the words hurt a bit more

Iโ€™m sorry if you donโ€™t like how I do things and Iโ€™m sorry if instead of hurting myselfthe way I used to..

Iโ€™m hurting you instead, itโ€™s hard to scream without my voice, now I canโ€™t cry for help, now I have to wait for someone to see me trying, Iโ€™m sorry…..

In a sudden twisted inward Iโ€™am lurched into an altered consciousness, of palpitating silent fear…fighting invisible strangling fingers, of irrational thought..

Neutrons are playing pinball in my head as someone else is looking out through my eyes at the people around me, who are all fine and well breathing normal air…

My heart is desperately afraid it runs and runs away so hard from a threat that exists, only in my mind but Iโ€™am distorted by panic, and my breathing betrays..my mind is clamouring wearily at me, to relax, get a grip there is no cause for such extreme sensitivity, it is only my own self consciousness nothing is really wrong…

Social Anxiety…….

Yes Iโ€™m positive, stomach churnsacid burns thatโ€™s just to visit friends, my heart needs interaction but just wants the night to end…

Anxiety….๐Ÿ’”

Iโ€™am always overwhelmed, by that feeling where your heart wonโ€™t slow down and your mind is freaking you out, and your palms are sweaty….

And I canโ€™t help but feel like I did something wrong constantly,

Iโ€™m overwhelmed by anxiety and I canโ€™t stop shaking and thereโ€™s no way to stop it, and I canโ€™t stop thinking about how It would be.

If it just stopped

If it just stopped…..

When Iโ€™m upset…

I shut myself down, I have no motivationfor anything I tell myself that nobody cares… even though I know some do..

I think about all of the negative things, I could possibly think of..I give myself all the pain thinking I deserve it Iโ€™m not sure why I do that, but thatโ€™s just how Iโ€™am…

Take care…โœŒ๐Ÿผโ™ฅ๏ธ..xx

Anorexia Nervosa, Anxiety And Depression, Isolation,…Saying Goodbye…๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿ’”

Hi, peeps…๐Ÿ™‚

Feeling a little overwhelmed again..as I went to see a counsellor today…and I must admit I let out some of the anger and bitterness from my childhood past….๐Ÿ˜ข I felt a sense of release at last somehow..but Iโ€™m getting there slowly…

This is a hidden story, that remained closed, a healing heartbreak of illness…and hurtful memories….๐Ÿ’”

My mental health illnesses, of depression and anxiety… anorexia nervosa, isolation, was a huge struggle to fight…having grasps of healing to try a restore my soul..I found it really difficult along the way and Iโ€™ve finally adjusted โ™ฅ๏ธ..

My story will hopefully guide others in the process….of healing and restoring their mental health…and wellbeing..๐Ÿ™‚.


My quote Iโ€™ve found…..helped me..

โ€œDid you really want to die?”
“No one commits suicide because they want to die.”
“Then why do they do it?”
“Because they want to stop the pain.

As we struggle we can become more stronger..more open with our lives…when coping with depression and anxiety…it can bring on all sorts of emotions..and mixed feelings of anger and sadness…๐Ÿ˜ž when I had suicidal thoughts and experiences..especially with self harm… I did my best to hide my scars away from others…until one day my mother..noticed the bad scaring when I was ready for taking a bath ๐Ÿ›€ and became that upset she got me some help…even though at first I refused and became very emotional and angry ๐Ÿ’”.

My life quote…that I shared at the time that left my family in despair…๐Ÿ˜ข.

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But now I could never do it….speaking to someone, extremely helped..donโ€™t get me wrong I always become frightened of going into relapse…but I do try to keep myself busy…๐Ÿ’”

There Is always a positive outlook…my poetry..and inspiration…as some people know on here, Iโ€™m a trained listening volunteer at samaritans…that also keeps me more grounded to help others…โ™ฅ๏ธ and Iโ€™m always here to offer support to anyone who is struggling, out there!!! you are not alone..โœŒ๐Ÿผ๐ŸŒน

โ€œThe loneliest people are the kindest…

โ€œThe saddest people smile the brightest…

โ€œThe most damaged people are the wisest…

โ€œAll because they do not wish to see anyone else…suffer the way they do..

Counselling is helping me a great deal..of not feeling so overwhelmed..and not feeling the risk of self harm and suicidal thoughts..because we all deserve to be here..๐ŸŒน..I definitely understand a person when they have suffered physically and mentally..like I had in my past life and Iโ€™m saying goodbye to it all ๐Ÿ’—๐Ÿ’‹Iโ€™m letting go..

Iโ€™m setting out to do what I was going to do…lead an outgoing life out in nature ๐Ÿฌ..my fundraising events..and charities, ๐Ÿ˜˜…and of course my samaritan work ๐Ÿ˜Š…

And I want to thank someone… on wordpress nikki I thank you so much… for that beautiful post, of no matter what we go through in life..each day is a gift ๐Ÿ’ ..and I truly appreciate that..t.y ๐Ÿ˜˜.

Take care everyone…โ™ฅ๏ธโ™ฅ๏ธ..

Remember you all deserve to be on this earth..๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ˜˜

Xx