Hello Everyone, Hope you are well…..
Over the last two weeks or so, I’ve been in recovery from my eating disorder, don’t worry I’m not going to bore your heads with all that again [ I’m healing well!!] :]
First of all…… Dear little me!!!
I have not spoken to you in such a long time. It’s your older self here writing you this letter. I hope you are well.
I can see the struggles that you are facing; I can see it in your eyes, that you feel like you don’t belong. I feel it in your soul that you are struggling and need some guidance. You quiver at the sight of people, you shudder at the touch of a stranger, and you drag your lifeless body everywhere that you go.
Younger adult self,
Hello beautiful. I am beside myself to see all the potential you have in your future. I know right now you feel a little lost, and definitely pretty confused, but I am here to tell you, every struggle you are going through right now is worth it. You are navigating through some of the roughest waters of life, and there are many days that you can barely stay afloat, Just know that this rocky time in your life is preparing you for the amazing that you are to become…..
There are many things I would like to tell you, because as they say, hindsight is 20/20. But I think that what you need to hear most right now is that it’s okay not to know exactly who you are yet.
Discovering your true self is what this time is about. You are given more freedom at this time than you have ever had before, and it has ignited a beautiful, youthful sense of exploration in you, embrace it, kiss the boy, buy the shoes, take the class, go on a road trip. Make mistakes and learn from them. And by doing all of this, you will learn about yourself in a way that you never have, and never will be able to again.
You are beautifully, remarkably, imperfectly human, and because of that , you have your own quirky uniqueness about you. That uniqueness can change the world some day. Bask in it. Do not conform yourself to societal norms in an attempt to please everyone else. You will only leave yourself feeling deflated in the end, emptied of the beautiful spirit that once thrived inside you.
Have your own opinions, and share them in the world. Do not waste these precious years pretending that you’re not. Set your inner self free.
Lastly, love yourself before you love anyone else. You are a giver , not a taker, and while that is an astounding trait to have, it can be detrimental for your relationship with yourself. Become best friends with yourself, learn to laugh at your imperfections, and praise the good in others. Your body is a temple, and it should be treated as such.
There is a bright spirited, infectious soul inside of you, and you will love her, I promise,
Enjoy this bumpy ride, be a student of your mistakes, and allow yourself to be 110% truly you. The moment you forget what everyone else thinks and you unleash your inner self, you will break out of the box you have built for yourself, and you will shine with a blinding brightness.
Hold your head up, beautiful girl. Every wrong turn still gets you closer to the destination that is you. Discovering who you are is a journey that is built by mistakes, but never forget how strong you are coming to be……
Go forward, and do great things. You’re going to love who you become
Your older self.
But I could look at this another way……. here goes
To my younger self, I hope you know that heartache isn’t forever, nor will this be the last of it. Heartache is like a cloak draping over heavy shoulders, one we must learn to shed when it as taught us the lessons we need to grow. Heartache is how we know there are real things in this world; things that are so beautiful and raw and so close to our heart that it leaves a scar so deep when it leaves us.
If it doesn’t hurt, then it isn’t real, and in a world where there are so many glossy and superficial mannequins of people and products, we know how genuine gems are so rare to find and hard to come by.
Well my pals, know that everything will be okay because I am here telling you so. Know that everyday is the best thing that can happen to you, despite the pain we endure with our mental health, things are unfolding in their own miraculous way in the right direction. Know this and believe this because I am proof that you’ve made it out alive on the other side of the tunnel.
And despite what I’ve been through myself the last couple of weeks, I’m a strong person and so are all of you……
Peace, Love, and happiness!!!❤️🙏😄
Cheerio Take Care x